Through Hollow Eyes

The thought runs
Like shivers down
your spine;
Sucking the air from
your lips;
Forcing tears out of
your eyes.

(And it tastes like cold steel on your temple.
Just like every other suicide you've ever failed.)

You are all that is beautiful

You are all that is beautiful,

Like a bride I never buried-
Like a corpse I should've married-
Like the drink that drove me to death,
You are the nightmare that stole my last breath.

You are all the cruelties etched onto the blade of my knife,
And I am the fool that should have made you my wife.

-- Griffinhart

3 October 2011

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We did not invent the algorithm.

The algorithm consistently finds Jesus.
The algorithm killed Jeeves.
The algorithm is banned in China.
The algorithm is from Jersey.
The algorithm constantly finds Jesus.
This is not the algorithm.

This is close.

Okay so PAX Prime 2010 is over for me. Did a three-day, BYOC stint. Now to rattle off thoughts before they disappear from my head.

FFXIV looks fancy and its combat system appears to play a lot like WoW. Not sure if I want. I do want the CE just for the fanciness of the goodies.

EVE Online's booth was pretty cool. They had models of ships! MEGATHRON~ Also had a quarterly report book for $10, plus a Zippo lighter for $30 (lolno).

Speaking of EVE, Saturday night in BYOC, there was a pod race being hosted. I wasn't participating nor spectating, but it felt like it ran on for about two hours and there were lots of events. Teehee.

It took seven redraws to get all of the BYOC ponies out to people. I get the feeling that no one really wanted to participate in the BYOC Pony contest.

I'm torn between Triton and Turtle Beach for gaming audio.

HAWX2 felt decently fun and plays much different from Ace Combat (especially Ace Combat 6). Seems like there's more of a focus on the air combat, and there are some really fun sections of the game demo. I think I might get it for PC if it releases on PC.

Goooooooood gods I want SpyParty to come out already.

Valkyria Chronicles II on the PSP! DO WANT.

I'm liking the Keyboard Quiver I bought. It does actually fit my G19 (if I remove the detachable palm rest), plus my Razer Vespula pad and Mamba and a bunch of cables and my Western Digital Elements 2TB portadrive.

Duke Nukem Forever was a disappointment for me, from what I saw. Doesn't seem like it plays at all like a Duke Nukem game. We need a resurgence of run 'n gun shooters, IMO.

ArmA2, multiplayer, against AI enemy forces is SO FUN. Guhhhh it's ridiculous~

I also really enjoyed playing Alien Swarm with people (didn't join the tournament, though).

I bought a Gurren Lagann and a Shakugan no Shana wallscroll. Teehee.

I also bought Metroid Metal GOTY + t-shirt for $25, and all six Scott Pilgrim books + two wristbands + t-shirt + sticker for $99. Also Exalted 1E Core Rules for $15.

I now officially love Taco del Mar more than Chipotle.

I was surprised to meet another Miku fan in BYOC. Didn't get to hang out with him much, though. :<

Overall: there weren't a lot of games at PAX that I was particularly enthusiastic about or looking forward to. HAWX2 was pleasantly good because I had no expectations, and I consciously elected to not go to the Dragon Age 2 playable demo because I don't want it RUINED FOREVER for me (yet).

Most of everything else at PAX was disinteresting: AssCreed Brotherhood didn't interest me when I first heard about it and it still doesn't interest me; Halo Reach had it's own booth but even as a massive fanboy of Halo 1 and the backstory I don't fucking care. Prequels just aren't interesting. I want more about Master Chief (x Cortana~), godsdamnit. (Also, speaking as a Halo fanboy: Halo 1 has the best multiplayer and the best story. All other Halos have been trash.)

Also apparently Epic Mickey was at PAX but I wasn't made aware of this until last night and that makes me ANGRY. I'm actually looking forward to Epic Mickey, hence my anger - didn't go to its booth/showing/whatever. Sadface.

That's all I can think of at the moment. If anything comes up... well, I probably won't post about it. >_>

-- Griffinhart

I wrote a lot of poems on Friday to make up for the blatant lack of such in the past couple of months.

I spent two hours at Starbucks; this is the result. Edits happened in the transfer from analog to digital. They are intentional afterthoughts, compensations, ameliorations, self-censorship of the worst and most foul kind.

I do not apologize. Instead, I resolve to write better, so that such edits need not happen.

I will fail this resolution.

There was a word here. I went and lost it, never put the pen to the ink (the fingers to the keyboard), never made note, never recorded it.

How did it go?

Something like...

What is poetry in motion?
Is it a song, silent, sibilant, sliding from shades and shadows?

Or something like that.

There was a girl, wasn't there?

Was it a girl, fearsome, fiery, a heart full of fury - fighting for freedom?

No, there wasn't any freedom.

I hate losing words.

-- Griffinhart